Beehind: Struggleling in Barca,

My first struggles in Barca,
　
As I told you about my "first" confrontation with my Aupair Mum in Andorra (ski- vaca),I got to thinking and was super nervous these days. I felt like maybe they weren't happy with how I was.
To my part, I really do try. I keep my bathroom (el bano) super clean, as well as my Bedroom (el dormitorio). (She wants them mopped once a week and well cleaned) I don't leave anything laying around. I say thanks, I am super polite, I try to join into Family activities. I try to play with the kids (which they are super busy, we don't ever really have time to play, but the girls are starting to grow on me, we are bonding ;) ) Follow her instructions, ask if I could help when I see them doing "housework" like laundry, cooking and so on, I clean the kitchen , wash dishes/ empty the dishwasher, things that could be expected- I try. So as its not as easy to know how things and people like things to be done- I try to guess! Well ….I guess there were a few things she needed to tell me.
One morning she came in my room and said, we need to talk. She said: what are you doing now. You seem like you are on the waiting list. What are your plans. Are you staying here, are you thinking about doing something else?!
- it was strange the talk, since I didn't know what exactly she meant with "waiting list" and couldn‘t read the orca of the conversation,--- was it negative or positive -or even both!?. She said that Au pairs have it pretty easy and that there are things that she automatically does, but the Au pair should be doing them. (was that I sign of me not doing things- or just a statement). I wasn't sure and after that talk I was just totally sad. I was confused. Followed by strange days of "not being woken up and told to eat breakfast" Then I was also told that they will start having a Meal plan. (a few days before that, she said that they waited for me for lunch- but I never came- in my defense I had told them I went to go workout) I am not sure when we eat and when to tell them.. and eijajaja. A lot of things you see!
So As I am just worried and not feeling comfortable. I am trying to find solutions. My friend was suggesting a job position as a "cleaning lady" also with room and board, same hours more physical work but also more money. So I was enjoying that thought for a while. But How would I tell them this (my current Au pair fam). Hmm, happens to be that the job offer I got, was the German friend of my Au pair mother. (this would just complicate the situation even more) therefore I wasn't sure if I should even have my Friend Angela ask about the position. Well she did and her Au pair mum said that I was "too good" for this job. Then at night time my au pair mum was on the phone with My friend Angela's Au pair mother. So now I was totally confused and scared that she would say something. Aghh, gah…..!
Then I received the “good” news from Angela- my friend- she said. Andy your Fmaily totally loves you. They were just lifting you up high. They were so pleased and said it is working out so well. Jipiiiiie…. Gah, So happy… next morning… what can I say, I saw the light and the positive again :D… my Au pair mother so cute.. Bought me these cookies.. “hello kitty” cookies, because she knows I love “hello kitty” hahah… supper sweet.
We had some great sunny days… Some lunches with the family, delicious deserts.
Ou, I started school. It is a language school in Barcelona. Metropol. I am currently catching up 30 hours of class in 6 hours of private lessons, therefore I will be able to join back with the group (hopefully) so every day I have these lesson with her, we go through 3-4 chapters.. And my brain is in overload.. I feel like I don’t have the chance to practice one thing slowly.. Eijaja.. Not so sure how this is going to go.. Well Andy, time to get to work and study… Going out it put down for a while, focus and structure is much needed… and it wouldn’t be any better then to share this with my Spanish bestie Angela. We just sat down at the beach studied at her place, I help her in English and she helps me with my Spanish! J I am incredibly happy to have found her.. Gah, I don’t get how similar we are sometimes.
She said, my dream car is a mini, in black, convertible… gahhhh mine too but in charcoal; (weird, I know but its crazy).“Andy should we buy chocolate.. “ “ well I only eat dark dark chocolate” “haha so do I” She is a believer… she’s awesome!
She is a person that fits in my life… Introducing the things that I need. And had planned. (like we said back in the treatment center I used to work for.. A total healthy friend and such positive influence) Gah, She is a blessing!
Wednesday- miercales (castellano) aka “miracle day“… is her birthday… salsa, cake and much needed fun J stay tuned!

Studying Spanish, Angela didn't want to smile for the cam