Alright, alright.. I guess I do have an inspiration.
2 things, well 2 beautiful people… Julia and Elizabeth Gilbert, Author of the #1 New York Times Bestseller “Eat, Pray, Love”, also recently filmed and brought out with (who could be better) Miss beautiful smile Julia Roberts. (this is not the Julia of my inspiration)
Okay lets talk Julia, aka miss Coco sister. My beautiful friend. I was about 15 years when I met miss Doreen. She and her Family had gone to the same school and lived in the same suburb as I for as long as I remember. When we teen girls started liking the same boy, we became quickly friends. She is great and we became very good friends ( “those friends your parents wish you never made, because the telephone bill was sky rocking high“ kind of friends) well, she has this wonderful older sister Julia. She has been one of these people that no matter how long we hadn’t talked for, we would never ever run out of material to talk about. Julia graduated from High School and did an internship in Spain. Wooow, how cool is that, (thinking with my adventuress young 15 years old) I wanted to do it too. For all I have known I tried to get her sister to agree on an exchange like that, after we would have graduated. Well life doesn’t just happen the way ya’ would like (Like I had mentioned in my blog before, right?). I decided to take on my faith in the US and moved away from everyone and everything. Julia has been a great friend I kept in touch with and pored my heart out at times, talked to hear about my success and things that were finally running. I always admired her. She had moved from Spain back to Germany, to Germany to Alabama (She went to school/college while doing all this, very admirable) then New York, Germany, Almost Brazil (I guess it didn’t work out) and now she is in New York again. Where did she get the courage to do this all on her own. Well I want to do it too. One day. Ever since I was 15 years old I knew that this was on my bucket list: Move to either Spain or Italy for a year, two or more.
Now to my secondary and final inspiration. Eat, Pray, Love. Honesty, I didn’t know there was a book out that did this/ had similar plans. I read the book and fell in love. This lady had never really found herself and never found what she really wanted from life. She was taken by the mentality of life: “I guess this is what everyone else would do” mentality. She was depressed, frustrated and finally left her Husband after several years of marriage. After that relationship, she went into the next one. (She never seemed like she was quite happy on her own.) So she was super depressed, met a guru, met a medicine man, in her case this was her inspiration and made plans to move overseas for a year.(since I am not writing a book report, I will not tell ya’ much more… this is for you to read) But how cool is this. This book had my heart beating. I didn’t know that there were more people like me and goals like this and all in all, she is an grown up woman.
Well, I had quite the ruff time here in the US. But people everywhere go through struggles and troubles. So I don’t try to self pity myself. I have worked 3-2 jobs (just about every day) and have been used to this ever since I had known to be on my own. It’s hard to support yourself by these “baby jobs”. We call this a typical burn out, short on temper, hard to see things positive, frustrated at work and more symptoms. A life that wasn’t worth living. 2012-the movie…(why did I ever watch this Movie?) Well, I guess it brought me closer to my goal.( Let’s stay structured I don’t mean to get ya’ll confused here, are ya’ll still with me?) So 2012 the movie. If you hadn’t seen it, well it’s a movie about the earth going down in 2012. I had never been more scared. This world had actually an expiration date.? On top of that I had been going to this church. Let me tell ya, he was not shy about talking “revelations”… Revelations: time has been going by faster, quicker, it is coming: the judgment will be coming, he said.
Everywhere I was going they just dwelled on my fear. Okay don’t get me confused, when the Erath goes down, well then it will go down. There is just nothing we can do about it, BUT please tell me… All this hard work I was doing, all this straight forward focus towards achieving goal, more goals, get school started, work, work and more work (“can you pick up a shift for me, yes of course always“- kind of hard working work) fun?-what’s that. I was an absolute devoted hard working goal achiever. I had no fun, no life worth living. So that got me thinking of what I am doing wrong… It is not the destination that defines our life’s- it is journey that takes us there. BAM BOM BAM, I had never seen clearer ,ever I mean ever. Guess what, I have never been happier either. I am finally, finally over my frustrations and bad pasts, because I have a life worth living? So let me ask you this: Have you ever been caught up and focused to hard to straight forward, that you had been forgetting to live life the fullest?
2 things, well 2 beautiful people… Julia and Elizabeth Gilbert, Author of the #1 New York Times Bestseller “Eat, Pray, Love”, also recently filmed and brought out with (who could be better) Miss beautiful smile Julia Roberts. (this is not the Julia of my inspiration)
Okay lets talk Julia, aka miss Coco sister. My beautiful friend. I was about 15 years when I met miss Doreen. She and her Family had gone to the same school and lived in the same suburb as I for as long as I remember. When we teen girls started liking the same boy, we became quickly friends. She is great and we became very good friends ( “those friends your parents wish you never made, because the telephone bill was sky rocking high“ kind of friends) well, she has this wonderful older sister Julia. She has been one of these people that no matter how long we hadn’t talked for, we would never ever run out of material to talk about. Julia graduated from High School and did an internship in Spain. Wooow, how cool is that, (thinking with my adventuress young 15 years old) I wanted to do it too. For all I have known I tried to get her sister to agree on an exchange like that, after we would have graduated. Well life doesn’t just happen the way ya’ would like (Like I had mentioned in my blog before, right?). I decided to take on my faith in the US and moved away from everyone and everything. Julia has been a great friend I kept in touch with and pored my heart out at times, talked to hear about my success and things that were finally running. I always admired her. She had moved from Spain back to Germany, to Germany to Alabama (She went to school/college while doing all this, very admirable) then New York, Germany, Almost Brazil (I guess it didn’t work out) and now she is in New York again. Where did she get the courage to do this all on her own. Well I want to do it too. One day. Ever since I was 15 years old I knew that this was on my bucket list: Move to either Spain or Italy for a year, two or more.
Now to my secondary and final inspiration. Eat, Pray, Love. Honesty, I didn’t know there was a book out that did this/ had similar plans. I read the book and fell in love. This lady had never really found herself and never found what she really wanted from life. She was taken by the mentality of life: “I guess this is what everyone else would do” mentality. She was depressed, frustrated and finally left her Husband after several years of marriage. After that relationship, she went into the next one. (She never seemed like she was quite happy on her own.) So she was super depressed, met a guru, met a medicine man, in her case this was her inspiration and made plans to move overseas for a year.(since I am not writing a book report, I will not tell ya’ much more… this is for you to read) But how cool is this. This book had my heart beating. I didn’t know that there were more people like me and goals like this and all in all, she is an grown up woman.
Well, I had quite the ruff time here in the US. But people everywhere go through struggles and troubles. So I don’t try to self pity myself. I have worked 3-2 jobs (just about every day) and have been used to this ever since I had known to be on my own. It’s hard to support yourself by these “baby jobs”. We call this a typical burn out, short on temper, hard to see things positive, frustrated at work and more symptoms. A life that wasn’t worth living. 2012-the movie…(why did I ever watch this Movie?) Well, I guess it brought me closer to my goal.( Let’s stay structured I don’t mean to get ya’ll confused here, are ya’ll still with me?) So 2012 the movie. If you hadn’t seen it, well it’s a movie about the earth going down in 2012. I had never been more scared. This world had actually an expiration date.? On top of that I had been going to this church. Let me tell ya, he was not shy about talking “revelations”… Revelations: time has been going by faster, quicker, it is coming: the judgment will be coming, he said.
Everywhere I was going they just dwelled on my fear. Okay don’t get me confused, when the Erath goes down, well then it will go down. There is just nothing we can do about it, BUT please tell me… All this hard work I was doing, all this straight forward focus towards achieving goal, more goals, get school started, work, work and more work (“can you pick up a shift for me, yes of course always“- kind of hard working work) fun?-what’s that. I was an absolute devoted hard working goal achiever. I had no fun, no life worth living. So that got me thinking of what I am doing wrong… It is not the destination that defines our life’s- it is journey that takes us there. BAM BOM BAM, I had never seen clearer ,ever I mean ever. Guess what, I have never been happier either. I am finally, finally over my frustrations and bad pasts, because I have a life worth living? So let me ask you this: Have you ever been caught up and focused to hard to straight forward, that you had been forgetting to live life the fullest?
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